Okay, the title of this post isn't entirely accurate, but it's close. LOL This weekend my oldest got her temps. She's been practicing on the back roads some with her dad and she's slowly getting the hang of it. Sunday, after church, we let her drive us part of the way home. She started closer to town, more traffic. By the time we got home my heart was in my throat and I was simply beside myself with fear. No, she didn't do anything crazy or wild. She did very well and she's taking this very seriously. She listen's to her dad's instructions and keeps both hands on the wheel and her eyes on the road.
The thing is, it wasn't her driving that made me want to lock her in her room. It was the fact that soon my baby will be out there driving. She'll be on the road with everyone else and dad won't be beside her, ready to grab the wheel in case something goes wrong. I guess it hit me all at once. It was all I could do to make it to the bedroom before I broke down. I didn't want her to see me upset.
No one is more aware than me that this is one of those parent issues that I know I'll have to come to terms with. Whether I like it or not, she's going to be driving soon and I'm going to have to have faith that she'll be okay. That she's smart enough to drive safely. That we raised her to use her brain. I guess it didn't help that right when we got home I checked my email and saw a traffic alert that a major highway was closed due to a bad accident. All I could think was someday Kati will be out there.
I guess my question to you all is, how do you get through it? What helped you deal with this type of fear? I'm trying to think positive. I've prayed about it. I'm reminding myself that she's a smart girl. I'm aware that I can't control everything. But I'm still just terrified. Help!