So, before I start on the subject of Menopause I should tell you a little pet peeve of mine. I hate labels. I hate being diagnosed. And most of all I hate going to the doctors. Why does all that bother me? I don't know. Maybe it started when I was a kid and had to have multiple skin graphing surgeries. When you grow up scarred or deformed in some way, no matter how minor, you get tired of having to explain to people what happened and why. You get tired of giving them the technical term and seeing the pity/horror on their faces. I'm just me. My scars don't make me who I am. They're just another part of me. They're no different than my eyes or my fingernails.
So, lately, I've been contemplating going to my doctor because I suspect I've started going through menopause. The hot flashes, fatigue, mood swings, fluctuations in weight, it's all there and then some. I dread going to the doctor though. I dread hearing her tell me that I'm going through menopause. And not just because doctors make me break out in a cold sweat, but because once she labels me I'm going to feel every bit my age. I'm going to feel labeled. That bothers me.
Let me clear something up though. I'm not concerned about being 43 necessarily. I'm happy with where I'm at in my life. I'm happy with the things I've accomplished. You couldn't pay me to be in my twenties again, lol! I was a mess in my twenties. :P
So, yes, I'm truly excited about where my life is headed. I don't wish to be younger than what I am. But, again, slapping that menopause label on me makes me want to just sit and cry. It's mind over matter and I know that. I guess it just upsets me because it feels like I'm no longer on the uphill climb, but more the downhill slide. Does that make sense? I think I'm rambling. LOL I don't know, it's like my youth is now a thing of the past.
Still, burying my head in the sand will not take care of these hot flashes and mood swings. Only researching and exploring my different options can do that. I'm trying to look at this like any other project. The more I know about it, the more I can help my daughters when they hit this age. The easier it'll be on the both of us.
So, I turn to you ladies. Have you been where I'm at? Did you dread it? Got any good tips on getting through it? I'm all eyes! :)