Don't you hate it when you overthink everything you do? I'm really close to finishing Lover's Moon, the first book in a new series. Now my lovely editor may read this and go BLECH and I'll consider abandoning the whole 'series' idea but at the moment, that's the plan. I have a bit of 'tweaking' to do yet and then the final chapter. This is a longer work and I've carefully woven in a duo of very appealing (at least I think so) sexy heroes who will be featured in subsequent books. I've been sure to see they serve a major role in the current story. I've added strong emotional connections between the hero and heroine, a nasty villain, lots of magical things, etc. but it doesn't matter. The closer I come to finishing the more nerves begin to set in.
Why? At this point in my career I should be brimming with confidence but I'm just NOT. Maybe I'm feeling this way because prior to this book, I've worked with critique partners and I'm flying solo this time. So now I'm on the final chapter and thinking to myself...is this any damn good at all?
Do any of you begin to worry as you approach the end of a piece of work? Or is it just me? This morning I'm trying very hard to battle back the doubts and get in a positive frame of mind. I know that if I DON'T, writing this last chapter will be a struggle. I've heard that artists often don't like to show their work until it's completed but I'm beginning to realize I'm NOTHING like them. I like a little push here and there. A word of encouragement or even someone to say...hm, this isn't working for me so why don't you try X, Y, and Z.
Several years ago, I took my daughter for detailed aptitude testing. This was not long before she was due to start college. I learned a lot about people while going through the 'exit' meeting with her and the counselors at this 'center'. Some people are meant to work with others. Some people naturally take on leadership roles and some folks are meant to follow company guidelines and should probably not work independently. A select group work best alone (scientific researchers, for example). My daughter falls into that category. Now, me? I didn't take the test but I now know for a fact, I don't work at my best when completely alone. I like getting that little nudge from peers, that little 'way to go girl' or that wee bit of advice that might improve what I'm doing.
I know critique partners don't work for everyone. I was willing to try going it alone but hey... it's TOO lonely for me. What do you think? Let's face it, writing a book is a solitary thing but a little solitude goes a hell of a long way.